After last night I just feel like running home to my best friends. :(

You Finally Find You And I Collide.

It's official. Jimmy's pledging is effecting my sleep now. DAMN IT. I'm really frustrated with the whole greek system in general. Like half of the pledging process is just a totally joke. But it's not like I can actually say anything about it.

I'm still on the hunt for a place/people to live with next year. Though I'm trying to let my parents, mostly my dad, handle the finding me a place while I just try and focus on finding roommates. Which the hunt is going better which makes things a little less stressful.

Professional practice is once again causing enough stress to make everyone lose their minds completely though after talking with some of the people who have already taken it makes the stress seem kinda like a waste of energy. So I'm trying not to stress about it and just keep my head clear and focused.

I wish I had more sleep so I could so something productive instead of watching strange TV shows and laying on the couch with my laptop. I'll get a coffee before math but that's not till 1pm so I don't know what I will do with myself till then. Maybe I should just cave in and nap? Nah then I'll never make it to class.

Just Don't Want You To Be Sorry You Didn't Try.

This is my attempt to avoid the massive amounts of work I should actually be doing.

I should be printing images for my Color in Light crit however that is almost impossible since the art building has decided that it wasn't want to have any ink for the kids to use. Ugh. So frustrating. What's more frustrating is that the teacher then blame you for not having done your work earlier before the ink ran out. It's all about the blame shifting.

Last night I got to light paper on fire so Caitlyn could take pictures. It was fun though I almost caught myself on fire twice and we were standing in the shadiest corner of the art building. However fun none the less. We then went inside, to warm up our feet and bodies in general, and sat around talking about art for like an hour. Maybe me realize that I actually only enjoy talking to a few people in the art department because the rest are too hipster or full of themselves for me to put up with.

I love yogurt and granola for breakfast.

I should really be working on extra work for my art show especially since I don't have a lot of other art projects that I'm working on right now. I don't know maybe I'll spend some of today working on it or the weekend.

Time to go lay in bed and watch hulu...after I put my laundry in the drying.

Well I'm Fine, Just Love Me When You Can.

Just when I was starting to feel like maybe I can't make it as an art major.
I guess I shouldn't be so worried about passing Professional Practice (a class that if I don't pass I won't be allow to continue in the art program).

Lie To Yourself Enough And It Becomes Reality.

Yep so I haven't posted in forever and I'm not quite sure why. I guess haven't had much to say.

I'm realized while being home that I'm extremely weird sometimes. I have come to realize that I handle change terrible in my life. Yea I know a lot of people say they don't like change but I'm one of those people that my life has so much repetitious that when something changes it I tend to freak out. I noticed this especially at night when I'm trying to sleep. At school I have a pattern and an extra person in my room every night when I come home I don't have that so that already makes sleeping hard. I also learned last night that if I break from the pattern I can't sleep...wow that makes me feel crazy. Oh well.

It's almost time for Christmas which is going to be all kinds of crazy in my household for many different reasons. And then comes yet another New Years which makes me feel kind of old. I'm not sure I'm ready to turn 20...well not like I can stop it so I'll deal.

Break has been interesting and relaxing at the same time. I have enjoyed not having massive amount of art projects to do. Though I'm not sure I've spent enough seeing friends but at the same time I'm enjoying alone time and not having to be around people.

Well it's Christmas Eve which means I should go make some Bran Muffins.

Thumorrow.

Sometimes it's fun to read old notes from high school...though sometimes I don't remember the inside jokes or why I found them so funny at the time. But I guess that's just the fun of it.

I'm gonna miss good breakfasts when I go back to school. Seriously I can't wait to no longer eat dhall food. It's just so....ew. Sighs only 3 weeks left.

I finally don't feel so stressed. Work slowed down a little, both jobs, and dance team stuff seems kind under control for the moment. Which is nice though if I don't finish choreographing there isn't going to be much to teach at camp. Blah oh well I still have 3 weeks so there is no rush.

I love shoes. Seriously they are one of my favorite things to shop for because it's so stress free. I know exactly what size I'm going to be every time and they aren't a pain to try on. So much fun to buy.

Well I don't have much to add now and I have to head to work.

You looked at me with those eyes, I couldn't leave. You asked why things are this way and I told you that you picked it. I wouldn't be with him if you had just been there. You walk closer to me, tell me you wish you were him. You kiss me ever so softly, pull me close to your body, whisper in my ear "Can I still tell you that I love you?"

I wake up in bed alone. Dreams can never truly be the reality.