Honestly now just hearing this song makes me feel weird. It feels like just yesterday that I got to school and texted David when that song came on the radio but in reality it was 9 months ago. Holy god and which means 5, well close to 6 months of that time I spend dating James. All of this just seems weird to me. Time feels like it's racing away from me and I'm trying to catch it.
The funny thing is I'm ready to leave school and like mostly everything about it. I'm ready to be done with classes, I'm ready to move out of my room yet I'm not ready to move out of James', I'm ready for it to only take me 5 minutes to get to Wal-Mart and fast food actually being fast food and having more options then McDonalds.
The major reason I'm ready to go home is cause I'm sick of the people here. Yea I made friends, well in a normal person's definition of friends, but I don't feel really close to any of them. You think in 9 months I would have made some kind of close connection to someone but I haven't. The only person I really got close to, besides James, was Ryan since we are in the same major and used to always be in the darkroom together. So I might miss him a little and maybe even Caitlyn, Chinchilla, and Joshie. But once again they are people from my major.
I felt bad telling James I was ready to leave because I needed to be around people who understand me. Honestly I just need some best friend time because I miss those two like a crazy amount. I'm tired of having to try when I hang out with people. I just want to be able to sit in silence while driving and not feel weird. I want someone who will jam out with me while blasting music. I want someone that I can call just to drag to a store with me for all of 20 minutes. I miss having someone who will drop everything just to fix a few crying tears.
I'm just ready to be home.
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me too.
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