"You're right I'm not a big girl. So tell me I'm stupid."
But it was weird for once he didn't just jump to telling me I was stupid, he wanted to know what was wrong every little detail. I tried to explain but between crying and driving, my words began to get jumbled. I'm amazed that he could follow my thoughts. I've tried to take on the world and I just can't, I came tumbling down.
"I'm not you. I can't take on the world and take care of myself."
"That's because you need to come before the world. And you don't need to be me."
I wish I was him sometimes. That I could always have the right things to say, know how to fix any situation, repair all broken hearts. I felt terrible holding Nene and not being to say a single thing besides, "I know it sucks" which just made feel like a terrible friend. I really didn't want to crumble in front of him but I always do for some reason now. Maybe because he always seem to catch the pieces so perfectly and place them all back together.
"It's because you never get a guy that deserves you. I promise one day you'll met this perfect boy who treats you the way you're deserved and you'll call and tell me all about it."
"But he still won't be good enough in your eyes."
"Well duh. No guy is good enough but if he makes you happy then I'm happy."
Some reason I believe him. I always believe him. Every little word he says seems to just make sense and I know it's the truth. I know he wouldn't lie to me just to make me feel better and it's nice knowing that.
"Look, you're the most amazing girl I have ever met and one of the only people I have ever let this close into my life. Because you're just so incredible. I'm one of the hardest people to get close to and you're have that, you have me. Think of all those people that just want to be my friends and be super close to me and none of them how what you have."
I literally just cried my eyes out. The things that I always thought in my head were finally said out loud. It just felt amazing to know that he felt the same way I did.
"One day you're going to be able to see yourself how I see you. And you'll realize I was right."
"I'm holding you to that."
"Then I'll wait everyday for that phone call."
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