I Thought Of You And The Time We Jumped The Fence, Pool-Side, Stripped Down, We Dove Right In.

I feel more confused right now than a four year old with a Rubik's cube. My mom is sending in my application to Shepherd's right now and I'm completely terrified probably since I'm only applying to that school. Ugh whatever, I'm trying really hard not to think about it.

Last night I just kept crying over how behind I am in school and stressing about college so I just left my house and went to Max's. She watched TV and I cranked out some English homework which worked out a lot better than I expected. I hate that it's not that I'm behind because I have been procrastinating it's just because I don't have enough time to do all of it. It's starting to really stress me out, along with this stupid ass Christmas show thing. I probably don't like it because I just all around hate Christmas. Though maybe this year won't be so bad if Seth comes and has to suffer though a Kennedy Christmas with me.

Tomorrow Seth and I have celebrate our one month which seems stupid to everyone but for me it's a pretty big deal. I have actually managed to stay in a relationship this long without a single fight and I haven't even thought about cheating. YAY FOR ME! I think my parents reactions were the best. My dad's response was "Oh wow you can stay in a relationship. That's a surprise." and my mom's was "Feels like he is been around a lot longer than that."

Over the weekend I managed to buy two pairs of heels and I'm determined to wear them more because I like wearing heels...damn it. I also worked on my portfolio with Lemon and Max which was a good time. We all were acting like we were four years old while we ran all over Wildwood. I remembered how much I used to play there when I was younger. I love my new profile picture (the one of all of us jumping) because even though it's of our backs you can just see the happiness in all of us. I don't know maybe that's just me.