For It To Feel Like This, Like Every Inch Of Me Is Bruised, Brusied.

Well at least on my knees. Haha. Damn me and my uncoordinatedness, yes I just made that a word.

I haven't slept in days because of my never ending racing mind. I just keep thinking about this little thing and that little thing, if I remembered to do this, have to remember to do that, will I have enough time. So many stupid, trivial things. Sometimes I wish he was Del because then when I'd talk to him he would get it and say that right things. Why is it that nobody has just the perfect words at the exact moments like Del does. Though I'll give it to Kana she can come very close sometimes. Sighs. Things are once again changing too fast and I have no idea what to do. I know I should just try and take everything one step at a time but I'm the stupid kid who tries to take it all on at once. Yay for Tory's stupidity.

I've been extremely depressed lately which sucks. I finally thought that maybe I was just like every other teenager who just went through their little depressed stage but alas no hope for me. I'm clinical and shall always be even when everything is going perfectly fine in my life. Just another thing to live with.

I got bored last night after finishing my homework (yes I actually did my homework at home. What a strange idea!) so I decided to paint my nails but of course I couldn't just paint them one color but instead 3. And of course they have no rhythm or reason to how they colors are painted instead they are just that...painted. They make me smile.

But in the end life will keep going and I'll keep living it.
Peace, Love.