Tears Fall From A Reddish Night.

I missed them so much.
Never realized how empty I was without them.

"Lets waste some gas."
Passing that green sign letters spelling out my favorite place.
A grin passes over my face as we get closer and closer.
"Oh. I found a song that made me think of you the other day."
I love hearing him say that.
But I wasn't expecting what came next.
I'm watching you change
It doesn't have to be this way
It gets harder every day
So you keep numb to feel safe
The words pump through those speakers.
Saying all the things he wished to say to me, all the things I feel.
You're miserable
When he is close
So take another drink
Another drink will numb those senses
And make the most of flesh and bones
If it helps you fall asleep
Cold tears line across my eyes.
I wish I could say all the things I wished back.
I still remember the days
When you didn't feel the need to escape
And every demon you never face
Is the reason you're not safe
A fake smile to cover the tear down my face.
Nodding my head with the beat, flash him a smile.

"I can't believe I'm here with you guys."
We stand on the rail and scream to the world.
Scream away every pain, laugh, tear, smile.
"It's hard being up here."
I wished he was you and her arms were yours.
He hands me a shirt for warmth, with a warming smile.
"It's okay. I'm with the two people who love me more than this world."
She smiles behind her shiver.
He moved closer.

"I don't have to like you because I love you."
Fake fights, kicking knees, and laughing.
My words surprised him, turning with a grin across his face.
"Here now we are married...all three of us."
Sharing my rings with them.
Even he kept it on and I smiled as he played with it.
"You guys look cute together."
Hiding their smiles behind their eyes.
My heart smiles at their happiness.

"I know why she doesn't like her but I don't know why you do."
The words sat on my tongue.
...She has everything I used to, she has you.

"I'm totally going to object at your wedding. Then get hammered."
We joked and I said I would ban him.
Honestly...I don't know what I would do if he wasn't right there by my side.

I can't find the right words anymore.
So I'll say it plainly.
I love you.