Everything came rushing out. My words didn't stop, anger fulling my voice. I didn't mean to say all the things I did but I couldn't help it. I finally got out my words, my feelings. All those fears of being dropped, being rejected vanished. His voice got that change and his soft eyes came forward. I love those eyes.
"I just realized I needed to step away so that you could learn to do things on your own. I wanted you to see how strong you were and that you don't always need me. That you can fix things by yourself. I never want you to think I left you or that I thought you were too much to handle. I'll never be far away from you."
My heart filled with such joy as I mumbled words through teary voice.
"I just thought about what you said after prom, 'You're living the same old bullshit. You never do anything to change it.' So I've been trying really hard to change things. But it's kinda hard facing down those years of demons I have."
"I know it sucks. But look how good you are doing. Look at that smile."
"It hurts because I know all the things that he did but I still miss him."
"I don't understand that...well actually I do. There is that connect that was made and it sucks to have it ripped from you like that."
I can't believe for once he got it. I didn't have to explain or get frustrated when he just thought it was stupid. He just...got it.
"So how serious are you about this?"
"Serious enough to be losing a lot of sleep about it."
"Okay. Well you aren't sure yet."
"I know but I'm too scared to find out one way or another."
"I know, and I can only imagine how you 're feeling, but even if this does turn out that way. I'll take care of you and support you."
I wanted so badly to wrap him in my arms and thank him a million times. He really does care about me so much.
I feel so amazing right now.
Thank you doesn't even begin to show my appreciation for him.
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