Crying my eyes out, my heart was bleeding in every way. I hate him, I love him, I want him close, I want him gone. I just need him without saying I need him. Her arms wrap me tight as I begin sobbing. Nothing can stop my tears, "Do you want him?" "No...yes...I don't know. I can't breathe." I can't clear my head. Do I want you? Do you even love me? Are you worth all of this? I can't stop thinking for a second to even catch a breathe. "...I miss him." "I know. Tell what I need to tell him and I will. Tell me what to do. I want to fix this." She tries so hard and I can't even let her help. I'm trying so hard to open my heart up. I haven't cried in so long and suddenly I was crying about everything. "I miss my boys. I need them." "And I wish I could give them back to you but I can't. But you can get one back, I know you can. He still cares about you." I'm sick of fighting for him but then I remember all he has done. "I just can't trust him. What if he just leaves me too?" "Tell me one time when he wasn't there for you." "Never." Thats the truth. He could hate me, he could be mad at me for something but if I call he answers. When I cry his eyes get this look that melts my heart. How do you forget a friend that come to get you after you only saying you needed them so badly without even questioning what happened? You don't and I refuse too.
"You can't leave me."
"I wouldn't ever."
I love you, Del.
Please just understand...
The color of her eyes change
like her never ending lies.
You fucked her once
but she won't be back.
She's running to love,
to someone who will catch her.
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