Confusion, lost, worry, all come creeping back towards my heart. Those hiding thought want to come back, those suppressed emotion want to scream out. My head spins. Where to go? Fight the demons or just pretend they will go away. It's getting harder to breathe, to remember I'll be okay without you. Because without you my world falls apart. Without you I find everything harder to do. But I can't turn back the clocks, I can't make you love me again. That's what hurts.
Spinning around, losing control. With a sniffle and a wipe on my sleeve I remember. I remember that he is still in my life. I wrap his hoodie as close as I can. Closing my eyes and he is right next to me. Head on his shoulder and with his silence reminds why I'm here, who I am, and that I'll always be loved. My chest loosens and I'm breathing. Holding my hand so tight that nothing could ever take it away. "You're fine, you always will be. I promise I'll never leave you."
You took my breathe away with you but he is able to give it back to me.
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There's nothing wrong with letting your emotion out. The hard part is allowing yourself to do so.
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